it is so stupid to make the title a "must", you have to make a "theme" of your words, kind of like you have to find out the theme of an essay when you were in school. I hate that as always.

 

anyway, i had a stupid day today, stupid lunch, stupid meeting, stupid dinner and stupid CD driver and stupid computer. oh, yes, I also got a weird message from someone I don't know, saying that I should walk away and move on for myself.

 

It sounds very right but shouldn't we face the problem and fix it? although I myself don't think it is easy to fix. No, I don't really know how to fix it.  everything is easy than done.

kind of feeling upset when I read some friends blogs. One moment or another, can't help remind her words when I was in Shanghai last year, when we meet at the bar of Hengshan Road, she said, "hope all friends be happy and we deserve good man and decent life and I don't want someone said their life is only OK".

 

I totally agree with her although I don't real think I got what you deserve. May be what I have now is what I deserve to have. Am I happy with the arrangement now? We can't escape something but we can't really espape from our real feelings. May be you think you can ignore something, may be you tell yourself that you don't care, but that's not the truth. You do care and you care a lot.

 

Things were carefully designed; books stacked high enough to block the view to monitor and the half closed door did the same thing. You know he is chating with someone and he definitely don't want you know by shuting down the windows. But you can't help noticing that by the sounds of typing; by the glimce of windows shutting down. You didn't show your anger but call him each time before you get in the study room to give him a minute to shut down the window. But it didn't help stop you noticing what is going on. You saw the window from the mirrow behind him and heard him swich off the power directly when you went to P in the middle of your sleep.

 

Are you too sensitive? Is it a big deal?

 

Seriously, since when you can totally ignore the works and live your desired life? It will be good to die before getting too old to move by the way.